Tuesday, August 2 2011
(max intake 400)
Bad day today - I couldn’t stay within the maximum of 400 calories. Instead I had 1246 cals which is far too high, but only 46 higher than my ultimate max. in intake off 1200. Though I’m not going to post my faliure today. Tomorrow is a new day and the diet continues!
Monday, 1 August 2011
(max intake 300)
I have to say sorry to you guys for not writing in my diary that often any more, I just have so much going on. I am moving to London at the end of the month and there is so much that have to be done by then. As far as it goes with my abc diet, it is going great, but I have to temporarily stop it for 10 days. I am going to do the lemonade diet when my mum is gone although it sadly breakes up my diet pattern. After the 10 days I’ll go back to where I left.
Intake:
Exercise:
xoxo
Sunday, 31 July 2011
(max intake 500)
Intake:
Exercise:
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Saturday, 30 July 2011
(max intake 500)
First day of the diet and I am feeling motivated and inspired. Had a binge/purge day yesterday, but it seems that I have lost 0.1 kg still - so that is not going to bring me down.
Intake:
Exercise:
xoxo
Saturday, 9 July 2011
Dear tumblr .. so .. I know that I have been neglecting you guys for a while, but it is all over now. I have been really into getting rid of the last pounds lately and it seems easier this time. I feel more happy and now when my exams are over I don’t feel nervous all the time. I have started eating more healthy (about 1500 cals a day) and I haven’t binged or purged for weeks.
It finally seems like it is going to be much better now and I believe that the binging, purging and general bad lifestyle was the result of me being stressed all the time and eating my feelings away. As soon as I stopped eating when I felt really stressed it somehow became a bit easier to control what I was putting in my mouth.
I feel like this is going to work and I just hope that the whole ‘eating between your BMR and AMR thing’ will work.
I think I’ll update my measurements tomorrow and maybe post my foodlog for the past days!!
Thursday, 2 April 2011
I’m tired of seeing no differences, so I’m fasting today which hopefully will make me loose 1 kg.
Intake:
Breakfast: Green Tea with cranberries
xoxo
Wednesday, 1 April 2011
Today is the day of the challenge. I just stepped upon the scale and it said 61,3 kg. So that is pretty much what i expected. That means that I really have some kilos to work off if I shall reach my goal weight at 50 kilos.
Intake (500 max):
Breakfast: One glass of juice and a peach (139 cals)
Lunch: One grapefruit and half a small melon (258 cals)
Dinner:Cabbage soup (70 cals)
Snack: 3 Almonds (21 cals)
Result: 487 calories
xoxo
Tuesday, 31 May 2011
I feel so much better as today’s exam is over. It’s crazy how an exam can freak you out like that. Now I can focus on my diet/challenge that starts tomorrow.
Today’s intake:
Breakfast: Oatmeal with soy milk
Lunch: Peach, some 0,1 % yogurt
Dinner: 4 servings of pizza /:
Outtake:
Some walking
I’m really excited to get started with my diet/challenge tomorrow, but I fear the scale so, so much.. I don’t know what I’ll do if it’s higher than 62 kg. But I guess the motivation to loose the weight will just be stronger. Fear the worst - hope for the best.
xoxo
Monday, 30 May 2011
Feeling terrible, so I’m not going to write a lot.
Intake: huge binge mostly like 10.000 calories..
Sunday, 29 May 2011
Sorry Tumblrs. I haven’t really been that committed lately, it has all been really stressful and I find it difficult to keep my motivation high. The exams are putting an enormous pressure on my right now and I’m so, so nervous all the time. Can’t wait for them to be over, because I just need to relax soon or I’ll go crazy.
Intake today:
Breakfast: Outmeal with pineapple and soy milk (366 cals)
Lunch: Pineapple chunks (124 cals)
Dinner: Dark toast with avocado and tuna spread and some grated carrots (352 cals)
Total intake 842 calories
xoxo
Wednesday, 25 May 2011
So. I’m really motivated to get this started and I’m so determined to get through the day without binging or purging. I have just taken some before pictures, so hopefully I’ll be able to take some after pictures soon.
150 sit ups just done due to the challenge/conversation on dashboard. Once again thank you to newzealandsbiggestloser, for getting me going.
Although I know that you aren’t supposed to starve yourself I just don’t feel like eating today. I have to eat dinner with my mom, but I don’t think I’ll eat other than that today.
As the day has went by I’m actually finding it easy not to eat (other than the dinner of course). I have been looking a lot at thinspo today and I came upon this discussing looking picture of a big lump of fat. I feel sick just thinking about it. You can find it on my page - but be prepared, you’ll never eat again!!
Fortunately, I had to make the dinner so I could decide exactly what to make to the rip-eyes my mom had bought. So I made two kind of salads and a small amount of potatoes in the oven with a lot of spices and (in among Cayenne Pepper). And last yoghurt natural with some cucumber instead of fattening sauces.
Total income for today is approx. 400 calories.
xoxo
Tuesday, 24 May 2011
Today I went to my exam and I were just really nervous for some reason. So I haven’t really been eating properly today. So far I have been eating an apple and a grape, which surely isn’t enough. Other than that I have been drinking 1 litre of water and a small glass of juice..
I’ll update as the day goes on :)
… yeah, so much for the overenthusiastic motivation earlier on the day - just binged like crazy and I feel like shit. Why is it so hard for me to just stay on track, I’m not even eating because I’m hungry. I feel like when I know I have been eating too much I might as well just continue till no food is left, because then it wont be there tomorrow when I’ll have a day of dieting. But that is just the most stupid, because my mom would just go and by some more and then I’m on it again. I hate it! It is so hard to stay focused when your mom is eating want ever she wants. It’s hard not to get tempted.. and I get tempted and then I’m filled with regret afterwards. It’s really just a vicious circle.
I hope I’ll do better tomorrow, but the confidence in myself is so near rock bottom. I really just have the backbone of a gummi bear…
I couldn’t possibly become more angry with myself that I am right now. I feel swollen and FAT. I really want to canalize that into motivation and I most often attempt to do that, but only for 1 and a half day. When I’ll get through 3 days without binging and eating unhealthy that’s when I’ll really find the motivation to go on. For right now it most of all seems like my weigh either raises or falls by 1 kg (about 2.2 lbs) every other day - something is blocking my motivation to loose 2 kg in a row… but tomorrow I’ll be preparing some carrots and fruits, so hopefully I’ll restrain from the urge to binge.
I can’t cope to think more about it so I’ll just go to bed. Nighty night fellow bloggers -.-
xoxo
